I don’t know what to write about this evening. The truth is that I don’t feel like writing anything and am trying to figure out how to get out 500 words. It’s not that there’s nothing to write about – I could write about my recent experience helping my first-grader with his science fair project (however, it was painful; so I don’t feel like revisiting right now). I could write about how the three-year-old and I went to the pediatrician today and he recalled the Daniel Tiger episode he’d seen about Daniel Tiger visiting the doctor, but I don’t feel like it. (Daniel Tiger will get his own blog entry sometime before January is finished though). I could write about how the dealer promised I’d have my car back on Tuesday and tomorrow is Thursday and I still don’t have said car. Eh.
I could write about how I remembered that I needed to check in for my Southwest flight 10 minutes before I was eligible to check in, but then I forgot, and when I checked in five minutes ago, I’m at the end of the B boarding section (I’m disappointed that I may not get a window seat). I will say that I’m excited that we can now keep our tablets and e-readers on during takeoff and landing. I never understood the airlines penalizing readers because we weren’t reading “real” books. There were so many times I was at a crucial point in a book only to be asked to shut down my iPad because we were getting ready to land. 15 minutes or more of good reading time wasted. I’m happy to see that corrected. But I guess that’s all I had to say about that.
We have a holiday coming up this weekend – Martin Luther King, Jr. Day. I skimmed an article today about things to do with your children for the holiday. I’d actually thought about just taking them to Port Discovery, but the article had actual interesting, educational things to do to teach them about what Dr. King stood for. I just have this thing about explaining age appropriate things. My six-year-old would probably understand if I took the time to explain to him, but should I expend the effort on my three-year-old? Can I wait a few years till he’s in school? As I’m writing this, I realize I probably should explain to the six-year-old. He can definitely get some of it, and some of the crafts / activities looked interesting. I’ll think about it.
I guess the problem is that I’m not inspired to do much of anything right now. Everything seems “eh” and “blah”. What this probably means is that I need to get out and do something useful, something that can actually help someone. I actually think that’s the problem. It’s something I’ve been struggling with. People who know me say I do a lot of good. I’m always helping people – but I am not sure how much help I actually provide. I think people would still get by or through their situation without me. I can’t seem to compare helping someone plan a program against digging wells in Africa and have the “helping plan program” come out as really helpful. :-). Of course since I have two children, a mortgage, car note and so on, digging wells in Africa isn’t really an option for me right now – no matter how I might want to.
What I need to do is stop whining and get up and actually do something right here where I am. Help the poor I’ve blogged about recently. Find a student to tutor. Volunteer for something. And then hopefully the “blahs” will leave.
Well. That was a little over 600 words, so on that note, I’ll push everything I’d planned to do this evening to tomorrow’s to-do list and head into bed.